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mellymellAnxiety and caffeine don't mix. I'm a mess this morning. I was a mess last night, too. I didn't fall asleep until after 2am. I laid down in bed at 11pm. I slept in until 8am this morning to keep from being a mess and exhausted at the same time.
Working with Steff yesterday, she started to make me nervous about not finishing costumes in time for Halloween. She took her pattern home to cut out the pieces and I told her to go find some cheap fabric to get a mockup done (since she can just pin it to fit it and doesn't need a sewing machine). I told her to go ahead and be shopping for fabrics for the final version too and if she could, go ahead and buy it. She did finish her purse, all but putting on the button and a loop to close it. It's cute, if not a little quaint in areas (the strap needs some help, but not bad for a first project, not having a pattern, and having a novice try to instruct you). I'm hoping she'll show up next Sunday with her mockup ready and her fabrics ready to pre-wash and cut. I'll probably call her almost every night this week and see how she's coming on it. Luckily she's following a pattern, so she's not going to have to fix things when I screw up and either forget to tell her something or don't really know how to go about something.
But I'm nervous. I'm not done with the Blood Red mockup (I got almost nothing done yesterday for having to cook and help her), I've still not ordered the velvet for it, haven't started the silk painting or dyeing on the paisley, and I still haven't even begun on Chris' costume yet. And I've got 2 more weekends before Halloween. It happened last year that I busted ass for two weeks straight and still didn't finish even half of our costumes in time. I've got to really work hard for the next couple of weeks. I hope Chris gets stuff that's super easy to cook at the grocery today, because I'm not going to want to spend every night in the kitchen. At least the house is clean. I spent all day Saturday cleaning for Chris' friend to come over for dinner. Another day lost. So I pretty much got nothing done all weekend, costume wise.
So, I think I'm not going to touch the computer at home for the next two weeks. I might even turn it off altogether. Nah, I need music to keep working well. I just have to keep thinking, "I can do it" and really focus.
Working with Steff yesterday, she started to make me nervous about not finishing costumes in time for Halloween. She took her pattern home to cut out the pieces and I told her to go find some cheap fabric to get a mockup done (since she can just pin it to fit it and doesn't need a sewing machine). I told her to go ahead and be shopping for fabrics for the final version too and if she could, go ahead and buy it. She did finish her purse, all but putting on the button and a loop to close it. It's cute, if not a little quaint in areas (the strap needs some help, but not bad for a first project, not having a pattern, and having a novice try to instruct you). I'm hoping she'll show up next Sunday with her mockup ready and her fabrics ready to pre-wash and cut. I'll probably call her almost every night this week and see how she's coming on it. Luckily she's following a pattern, so she's not going to have to fix things when I screw up and either forget to tell her something or don't really know how to go about something.
But I'm nervous. I'm not done with the Blood Red mockup (I got almost nothing done yesterday for having to cook and help her), I've still not ordered the velvet for it, haven't started the silk painting or dyeing on the paisley, and I still haven't even begun on Chris' costume yet. And I've got 2 more weekends before Halloween. It happened last year that I busted ass for two weeks straight and still didn't finish even half of our costumes in time. I've got to really work hard for the next couple of weeks. I hope Chris gets stuff that's super easy to cook at the grocery today, because I'm not going to want to spend every night in the kitchen. At least the house is clean. I spent all day Saturday cleaning for Chris' friend to come over for dinner. Another day lost. So I pretty much got nothing done all weekend, costume wise.
So, I think I'm not going to touch the computer at home for the next two weeks. I might even turn it off altogether. Nah, I need music to keep working well. I just have to keep thinking, "I can do it" and really focus.
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on 2005-10-10 06:44 pm (UTC)*hugs* I know that feeling!
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on 2005-10-10 07:12 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2005-10-10 07:23 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2005-10-12 05:28 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2005-10-13 05:14 pm (UTC)but you're right, and I calmed myself down by taking a real look at my time and what I've got left to do. Only when I have deadlines do things get stressful. And this is pretty much the only time I'm ever going to have deadlines.